The reflection

The Reflection..

As child I grew up in a small but very hot town namely Oudtshoorn. I was born in George but lived my whole life in oudtshoorn. I had lots of dreams as a child and enjoyed every bits and pieces of my childhood but with every person there is a cupboard that needs to stay hidden. Some things in life are not worth looking back at and regrets are coming with it.

My art reflection says a lot of my life. I used the word love in my piece to represent all the love that has been given to me but with that love there are the heartbreaks and disappointments that why it’s covered with black. I lost my grandfather a few years ago and I was the only one who wasn’t there to say one last goodbye before his departure to a more heavenly place. For that I used the girl in middle, away from home and sadness that can’t be shared with the family.

I’m a girl with my own individuality the ballet shoes represent my love for dancing but also the way I stand strongly on my own suffering thru pain but creates beautiful things. I’ve done sport my whole entire life and one thing that I’ve learned is that when something knocks you down you have to get up on your feet again. Family is there for some support when it’s most needed. I’m a very lovable person. I like to make people laugh even if I’m just talking nonsense. Other people’s happiness makes me feel warm inside.

For every super hero in my drawings it represents all the strong men in my life who help me when I’m down and to turn a frown upside down. In past relationships I’ve been mishandled and cheated on and every girl dream of her own fairy tale. Well someday.. A superhero is someone who saves other when they are in trouble. That’s who my father and my brother are to me.

I can’t stand people who lies to me and isn’t someone for surprises because of past history. I’m a fun energetic person who likes to play if I were just a young girl. I’m not ready to grow up and that inner child comes out a lot. Like the first love, the butterflies in the stomach, those rollerblade accidents with broken arms, the stomach flu when you end up in the hospital, the embarrass moment when a swing broke and you fell into a pile of mud, the awkwardness when a little kitten leeks on you. Memories are kept into a treasure box and it’s nice to open the box now and then.

This year is been the most difficult of all. It’s being portray in the art piece with the fox with the bag and all the grey drawings. I’m more than 400km from home and it’s a difficult adjustment that has been made and a more de3pressing side of me came out, a side I never knew. I like to put my iPod on and listen to music like if the lyrics just take all the problems away.

The blue bird represents those who look out for me. My grandmother is ill and my other grandfather also; I’m their most favourite grandchild because I was the first born. The cartoon box represent the illness in the family something that is very high of heart attacks and caesuras and I’m scared that the illness will skip a generation and I will die because of one of that causes.

The word maybe that is being portrayed in the art work is by presenting the future. No one knows what their future hold for them. And in a way I’m scared that there are things that I’m not going to control. We are the faces of the future and are seen as the next generation to look up to. Maybe I’m going to be a success, maybe married with children and maybe in another country. That’s the joy of the future, no one know what is going to happen.

To come to an end is that I’m a shy person till I warm up to you and then sparks will fly. I’ve been thru ups and downs in my life that I don’t want to go into detail. But with everything that happened I can say with proud I’m still me, no one will change me I’m unique.