the piece..

The collage i've draw..

The reflection

The Reflection..

As child I grew up in a small but very hot town namely Oudtshoorn. I was born in George but lived my whole life in oudtshoorn. I had lots of dreams as a child and enjoyed every bits and pieces of my childhood but with every person there is a cupboard that needs to stay hidden. Some things in life are not worth looking back at and regrets are coming with it.

My art reflection says a lot of my life. I used the word love in my piece to represent all the love that has been given to me but with that love there are the heartbreaks and disappointments that why it’s covered with black. I lost my grandfather a few years ago and I was the only one who wasn’t there to say one last goodbye before his departure to a more heavenly place. For that I used the girl in middle, away from home and sadness that can’t be shared with the family.

I’m a girl with my own individuality the ballet shoes represent my love for dancing but also the way I stand strongly on my own suffering thru pain but creates beautiful things. I’ve done sport my whole entire life and one thing that I’ve learned is that when something knocks you down you have to get up on your feet again. Family is there for some support when it’s most needed. I’m a very lovable person. I like to make people laugh even if I’m just talking nonsense. Other people’s happiness makes me feel warm inside.

For every super hero in my drawings it represents all the strong men in my life who help me when I’m down and to turn a frown upside down. In past relationships I’ve been mishandled and cheated on and every girl dream of her own fairy tale. Well someday.. A superhero is someone who saves other when they are in trouble. That’s who my father and my brother are to me.

I can’t stand people who lies to me and isn’t someone for surprises because of past history. I’m a fun energetic person who likes to play if I were just a young girl. I’m not ready to grow up and that inner child comes out a lot. Like the first love, the butterflies in the stomach, those rollerblade accidents with broken arms, the stomach flu when you end up in the hospital, the embarrass moment when a swing broke and you fell into a pile of mud, the awkwardness when a little kitten leeks on you. Memories are kept into a treasure box and it’s nice to open the box now and then.

This year is been the most difficult of all. It’s being portray in the art piece with the fox with the bag and all the grey drawings. I’m more than 400km from home and it’s a difficult adjustment that has been made and a more de3pressing side of me came out, a side I never knew. I like to put my iPod on and listen to music like if the lyrics just take all the problems away.

The blue bird represents those who look out for me. My grandmother is ill and my other grandfather also; I’m their most favourite grandchild because I was the first born. The cartoon box represent the illness in the family something that is very high of heart attacks and caesuras and I’m scared that the illness will skip a generation and I will die because of one of that causes.

The word maybe that is being portrayed in the art work is by presenting the future. No one knows what their future hold for them. And in a way I’m scared that there are things that I’m not going to control. We are the faces of the future and are seen as the next generation to look up to. Maybe I’m going to be a success, maybe married with children and maybe in another country. That’s the joy of the future, no one know what is going to happen.

To come to an end is that I’m a shy person till I warm up to you and then sparks will fly. I’ve been thru ups and downs in my life that I don’t want to go into detail. But with everything that happened I can say with proud I’m still me, no one will change me I’m unique.

 

 

insperation...

Some insperation to work from

Exited fever..

Exited fever

Like in the previous blog all can see my mind is set on drawing cartoons as an inspiration from my dad’s side and also the connection to my past. I’ve always have a love for drawing cartoons. Something about it soothes my soul and breaks me apart from the negative thoughts.

 

In matrix my father shared his story about where he got his love for drawing cartoons and how he got into it. I saw a piece of myself in him. Now it was my turn to take the wheels and get into that drawing mode of cartoons. Find its laughter but also its deeper meaning. Although I knew how to draw cartoons I founded it difficult to how to open up not just to me but to other people. I me someone who’s always on time, help others in need and put up a pokerface when it came to my own life.

 

I research a lot of cartoons and as I founded it I realised that it wasn’t as simple as I thought its going to be. After I founded all my information I started to pin all my things on paper and have a basic layout of how it’s going to look like. I decided that all the good cartoons or drawings in the collage will be colour in bright colours so that it stands out and for all those bad things in m history that will just fade into the background.

Where it all began..

Where it all began..

So I strolled thru the history all memories caught on camera who takes me back to every moment. . I thought if I looked at the photos I would feel inspired and get connection to a deeper feeling of my past rather than just thinking of memories in my head.

 

Hours and hours went in and I think when I came up on the photos of my dad in his matrix year every little detailed just fall in place. I mostly used existing drawings that inspired me and also have a deeper connection to my past.

That’s who I am; I told myself and just started to draw.

 

Project Floating..

Project floating..

When the project was first introduced to us I found it very hard to think of anything in particular and when I heard that there had to be made an object that’s when all the stressing began. My mind gone blank. What is there in my past or thing that I like or things that came from my an sisters? The question played a vague role in my head.

They talk about fashion items but wasn’t really my scene I wanted to work with clay but a messy object is hardly not going to express my thoughts and also my history. And then it was, like a light bulb above my head. I decided to draw and not any drawings, cartoon drawings. Cartoon drawings are something that came from my dad’s side of the family something that has been passed on to me and something that I enjoy doing.

I’m quite use to draw cartoons that’s all I’ve done in art in my high school years. My father shared his skills in cartoon drawing a few years ago and I found a passion in it. After I finally decided what I’m going to do I taught okay so now what? I’m going to draw cartoons but how and what exactly. My father is now and IT Manager at a big company and don’t draw anymore. His drawing started in middle school and at the end of Matrix with their last day he was appointed by his friends a week before to design for them a T-Shirt with their favourite cartoons on where they are going to use the t shirt so that the matrix can sign it. My father has his still today, his favourite cartoons is Tom and Jerry and also tweedy and Sylvester.

None of my family is actually artist. My mom doesn’t have one creative bone in her body and I think maybe my brother got that from her. One more person in the family is very creative and that my grandmother. In the early days she was a sculpture and made sculpting that she would sell just in her spare time, like a hobby. My grandmother is also an amazing painter something that I got from her.

Paint was always a big passion for and something about the way of holding a brush and move around with it and something beautiful is formed it brings a calmness over me. But it doesn’t matter how much I like my paint and my brush a sketching pencil will always be my best friend.

What do i think..

What I think..

With the question where do I come from I’m not sure how to react to the topic. It makes me uncomfortable and gives me a sense of I don’t know how to open up. Not even to myself. There isn’t a day that gone by that I don’t learn something new about myself but I see it as something positive. I intend to turn things that are negative in my life into something positive like a new life lesson.

As a student so much pressure is on your shoulders from sides you just actually wanted some support. The thing that most struggle is the living far away from our parents well it’s my biggest issue because I’m a family person and I love being around people who loves me. This assignment will force me to open up look deep into myself and take a deep breath and focus on the reality of life namely my thoughts.

I’m a person who lives for today and tomorrow, I don’t like to take a path thru memory lane because although there are so many stands out of my past, the bad things have a way of ruining that memories.